so here comes 2014.

in 2014 i want to:

be a better person. i have become too negative this year. i’ve let people bring me down to their level. i’ve let their evil and negativity fill me up. i know now that when there is evil in you, maybe it’s the devil, i’m not sure, but it feels right. it feels like you’re doing nothing wrong. you feel good. you’re happy, but it’s not a true happy. it’s false. all of the bag things that were said and thought, all of the gossip, it still happens. i still do it daily. but it’s different. i might be wrong, and it might still be the same, but i do know that i was associating with someone who is very unhappy, someone who uses other people’s unhappiness and failures to build themselves up. i’m not like that. i know i’m not. i’m better than that. i am going to strive to be a better person, to not spread my negative thoughts and opinions, no matter how strong they are inside of me. i want to try to be a better person in this aspect.

control the obsessive thoughts better. i never knew how much i let my worrying and paranoia control my life. it’s always been a part of me. i am a worrier. i let it define me. this year, i’m going to do better. i have been doing better in the last few months. i’ve made great strides. i will never be perfect. we can never be perfect. i want to do better about not needing control all the time, about letting things go. you can’t always have every answer right when you want them. sometimes you need to wait. just because you’re not in control doesn’t mean the worst case scenario is going to happen. things will be okay. you just have to give them the chance to be.

become closer with the Lord. i have fallen away from you, i know that. i don’t have an excuse. i could say that after my attack i lost faith, and that is probably right. i didn’t understand why it had to happen to me. i didn’t understand everything that would happen after it within myself. i know that i’m a strong person for what i got through, but i know that you were looking out for me that day. i think that i handled that situation better than most people would have. maybe that’s why it happened to me, because i could handle it. i’m proud of myself for what i went through and how i’ve lived my life after that. i do think it has changed me, and i’m still learning and adapting to it. it will never leave me. i won’t let it define me, but it is definitely a part of who i am.

random friday post

i don’t have any friday finds today, mainly because i’m in the middle of a series (night huntress by jeaniene frost, currently on book 2) and when i’m in a series i don’t even look at other books because i don’t want to be swayed from what i’m reading! i only have the attention span and memory for one book at a time :) sounds bad but it’s true. i have horrible short term memory.

anyway, instead of a friday finds, i thought i would maybe post some of my all-time favorite and least favorite books that might not be that well-known, that i know of at least. i love harry potter and john irving, but those are famous. i thought maybe some of these would be less well-known and someone might give them a try :)

Kissing in Manhattan – i love this book! it’s a book of linked stories, which i love. it’s awesome in the end when you find out how all of these individual stories and people are connected in the end. i’ve read some stuff about some people objecting to the book, but i really enjoyed it.

Like Water for Chocolate – so awesome. i know this was made into a movie and so people maybe have actually heard of this one, but i don’t care. i loved it. i also liked the movie, we watched it in one of my college english classes and then i bought the book from amazon. well, not actually amazon, from a random seller on amazong because i don’t think the book is in print anymore! it was worth it.

The Secret History – this is my favorite on the list. once again, not sure how well-known it is, but i had never heard of it when i read it. it’s slow in the beginning, but once you get through it, it’s SOOO worth it. i loved it. it makes you think, there’s drama, there’s relationships, there’s mystery.. yep. i read a lot of reviews that hated and i read a lot that loved it. all i know is that after i finished it, i spent months afterwards trying to find books as good as it.

i’d love to know some of your favorite books that maybe aren’t extremely famous! i’m always on the look out for amazing books that all of america isn’t also reading :)

www wednesday (9/12)

it’s time for www wednesday, courtesy of Should Be Reading!

What are you currently reading?
As of last night, I just bought One Foot in the Grave by Jeaniene Frost. I haven’t even read the first paragraph, but it’s the second in this series, and I really enjoyed the first book, so I have high hopes for this one!

What did you recently finish reading?

I just finished the first book in Jeaniene Frost’s Night Huntress series, Halfway to the Grave. I loved it! It was a quick read.. I think I finished it in 3 days. When one reviewer described it as just what you need to fill the Buffy-sized whole in your heart, I was sold. It’s about a half-human, half-vampire who kills vampires, hoping to someday kill the vampire who is her father and who raped her mother. She falls for a vampire along the way. I would highly recommend it.

What do you think you’ll read next?

Well, since I haven’t technically started book #2 of the Night Huntress series, I guess that’s what I think I’ll read next! :) But I’m assuming it’s going to be good, and after that I’ll move onto book 3.

Please comment and leave links to your WWW Wednesday! Happy reading!

friday finds.. none!

time for friday finds! this is where you post the books you’ve put on your TBR (to be read) list. here’s my issue:

i can’t find any books that i’m dying to read!

this has always been an issue for me. sometimes it takes me longer to decide on a book to read than it takes to actually read the book! so here’s what i’m thinking. i would love some comments on what books you guys think i should read next. i want to read something that’s going to get my attention from the beginning, something that’s riveting and will make me want to never stop reading!


please comment and link to your friday finds and i’ll be sure to read and comment back! and i would LOVE it if you would follow me as well :)



www wednesday

it’s time for my first www wednesday! hosted by ShouldBeReading :)

What are you reading right now?
What did you last finish reading?
What do you think you’ll read next?


1. right now i’m readying guilty pleasures by laurell k. hamilton. it’s vampires and zombies and lycanthropes and all kinds of paranormal goodness! i posted about this in my teaser tuesday so you can see the cover below this post.

2. the last book i read was a perfect blood by kim harrison. i loved it! a perfect blood is book ten in her rachel morgan series. it’s a witch, a vampire, a pixy, their relationships, their adventures, and so much more. one thing i loved about the series was that to me the books stayed fresh. when you get that deep in a series, sometimes it seems like the characters do the same things over and over, go to the same places and have the same adventures. kim harrison continues to keep her adventures new, which i very much appreciate.

3. the book that i think i’ll read next is probably book two of laurell hamilton’s anita blake series. i’m only a third of the way through the first book but i think it will get good. however, my mood might leave the paranormal realm by the time i finish, so who knows what i’ll read next! let me know what you think i should read :)

please comment and link to your blogs and your WWW wednesday posts!

teaser tuesday!

everyone please bear with me as i get my blog up and running. i’m going to start right off with my first teaser tuesday!

rules: current book, random page, two sentences from that page. no spoilers! make sure to post the name of the book so people can check it out if they want to.
i’m currently reading guilty pleasures by laurell k. hamilton. i’m not that far into it but i have high hopes for it.

“She stood there for a moment, looking ethereal and lovely like a painting. No sense of life but a thing of lovely lines and careful color.”
please comment with your teaser tuesday post and links to your blogs! hopefully this will be up and running soon. :)